Sunday, June 28, 2009

Short post

Hey have work in a few hours so I'm gona keep this pretty short.

First of all I'm not fucking tired but I'm gona try and get some sleep anyway in a wee bit.

Second I hate going into work without sleeping, my internal clock is gona be fucked haha.

Third I dont have any fags >.< those are cigarettes btw

Fourth my boss has it in her head that I want work so she has let several of the full time staff take holidays, she couldnt be more wrong haha I'm a lazy bastard and love sitting around doing fuck all. She also thinks that I like to work seperate days and not alot together which is also shite... I'm gona have to say it to her :\

Last I lost a follower do I bore ye that much O.o

Saturday, June 27, 2009

I'm still like O.O

Got a 2.2 or an average between 60-64.9% in my college exams GO ME =D Fucking rocking good news that was, I really really thought I did badly in one of them. Must be better at learning than think hehe.

I failed one subject in my first semester, dont worry didnt have anything to do with my actual course. It was a complete and utter waste of time that still pisses me off when I think about it. The fact that the lecturer was a thundering bitch also made me hate it even more >:( but anyway I had to repeat it during my second semester and I got a much fairer lecturer and even though some of the people in my group were a bunch of wankers and did fuck all. I'm confident, in fact I'm sure that I did very well in the reapeat... BUT the fuckholes that are the examintions board didnt allocate the marks.

So as it stands I have all of my credits bar one subject and I'm hoping that that subject, stupid though it may be will bring up the next few percent to give me a 2.1 which would be EPIC :)

Thats me done for now, will be blogging again soon. Take care :)

Cian

Friday, June 26, 2009

gah almost fucking shat myself for nothing...

Well the title is a bit odd but let me explain. I thought my exam results were out today but there wasnt an email from the examinations board in my student email :o so I had a minor panic attack buut thrn I realised that they are out tomorrow =D

The extensions getting tiled now :) cant wait to see the new kitchen thats going in it'l be mint I say.;D

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Lazy much?

Well its half 3 in the afternoon and while most people are having lunch I'm having my breakfast... Summer holidays rock =D Still havent got a call from work yet so dunno when I'm going in. Dont mind tho my new computer is a monster and I've been sorta glued to it the last few days :) in fact I'm gonna start playing that as soon as I finish posting.

So I'm still sorta sleepy while writing this I was ke up by listening to Trance etc on loud hehe... How do you add youtube videos haha (^^,) wish I could show ye the shit that I listen too =P

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

About my last post

It was rather short because one of my brothers came home, so i was like fuuuuck and turned off internet explorer and deleted my internet history in the time it takes to sneeze. Oh in case you didnt know he doesnt know that I'm bi and to be honest I cant see myself telling him or anyone I know in lets say the next 2 or 300 years :\

Which is really bugging me but as I said in an earlier post its just something that I cant make myslef do. I know there are a million reasons to do and not to it, but what I'm most afraid of is that silence after you initially tell someone something like that... eeek even thinking about is making me feel sick.

So anyway part from work and all the regular stuff that life has to offer (sleeping, eating etc..) I've not been doing a lot thats interesting lately. Back to boring old me hehe =P

Did go to one of my friends mothers birthday parties the other day which was ok I guess. The older crowd were locked (drunk) seeing as they had polished off about 15 bottles of wine between them, we had to do wine run for them before we started drinking as we were the only sober onesin the house hehe. Had my first gin and tonic there too which tastes like shite had to force myself to drink the fucking thing, so I guess I did learn something :\ the party was ok but I was a little quiet so much so that one of my friends asked me if I was ok.

I was kinda like O.o "What you on about?" he just said "You seem sorta quiet, you ok like?" Now that was strange but I was just bored with the topic of conversation at the time. Fuck I would have given my left leg for something to have caught fire outside and provide some form of entertainment... I really was that bored lol. A few of the older crowd at the party were in such a state that they did provide some entertainment for a while but there's only so much you can laugh at somebody that's hammerred before you go "Hey! Fuck off"

Oh I do have a question to ask ye, whats the legal drinking/smoking age where ye live. Used to be 16 here back in the stoneage but now its 18.... Had me waiting for years the bastards >:( oh and some off licenses "Reserve the right to refuse service" the CUNTS!!! If they think you might supply alcohol to the younger generation... Which is a load of shite imo but anyway.

So until something mental happens dont expect to be amazed here =P

Over and out

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Howdy =D

Hey not posted in yonks :\ my bad, but I'm here again now. Not really been busy either well unless you can count obscene amounts of computer being busy (^^,)

And also the fact that I've done bougger all so I havent really had anything worth posting about either. Just said I'd write this for everyone out there who's lending me their ear :)

And I'm really glad to see that mboys back :) loved his blog and was like :( when he said he was leaving and was like :( everyday I signed in and he hadn't posted but he has now so wOOt =)

Have been working a good bit which can contribute to me being a lazy shite, I'm lazy on a good day, after work haha... well lets say I'm slightly worse =P

Sunday, June 14, 2009

mmm Sleep

Havent posted in the last few days cos of work o.o it really fucks up my internal clock, the fact that I'm doing nothing for ages tends to make me sleep in late and then I get a call to go to work at 7 in the morning :\ that usually means I dont get any sleep before it. Came home from work on Friday and was in bed asleep by 8 pm haha and then I woke at about 1 in the morning and couldnt get back to sleep again and had work again so I was in bits yesterday.

Fell asleep on the couch when I got in the door, cousins called over -.- and were bugging the shite outta me, one likes to play my mums piano but she's really good at it so its not too bad least she's not mashing the keys, while the other is incapeable of turning the volume on my computer down and when a gun battery on a ship fires off 60 cannons it can be quite loud hehe. But after they left anyway I was desperate for sleep, my brain was screaming at me "go to BED" but I knew if I did I'd only wake up in the morning and be back to square one again. So I stayed awake till 12, went to be and fell into acoma woke up at 3 pm the next day haha. My Dad was drilling n hammering in the rooms below me all morning cos he's putting in the wiring and piping for our new kitchen.

He actually came up and woke me up himself because he thought I was gonna be there all day hehe. Anyway things are going fine atm just did two days in work so I wont be back for another few days and my computer is working so I have something to keep me occupied woot =D

The quiz that I went to on Thursday was a blast and we raised 540 euro for my friend to take with her and help build shit wherever she's going cant remeber, was hammered when she told me lol. Was a great night anyway tho pub was packed and most importantly it didnt rain :o

Oh I have a question, Ireland has a smoking ban in its pubs and places of work right now. Basicly no smoking in any indoor public buildings anymore. Being a smoker people would expect me to not like it, but I dont mind it I think its a great idea, it stops buildings from reeking of smoke and more importantly stops people breathing in second hand smoke which is just as bad as the regular crap. Is there anything like this in where you live? What do you think about it? Would you like it to be brought in?

See ye all later, Im off to blow things up :)

Cian

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Gah the house is fucked

Construction site indeed, running water from the bathroom, kettle + fridge out in the shed haha and its gonna be like this for a good while oh and now dishwasher so my evil rental units (well not really) have me on dishwashing duty the bastards.

We still have to do plastering, tiling, piping and electrics... Think I'm gonna have to give a hand with the tiling and its a big room :\ worst of all though is that my mums a hoarder so the kitchen was packed full of useless shit that she's never going to use but she's still like 'NOO I nEEEEd it' I mean FFS you mongo get a skip and bin the lot of it its all shite haha (making sure to recycle what you can mind you).

Oh man I have a tough life :( I'm off to the pub in an hour or so to go to another fundraiser..... =D should be good craic I'd say. I'l tell ye bout it later :)

bye for now

Cian

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

IT LIVEEEEEEES O.O

The fucking thing is working no shutdowns WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT 2 grands worth of computer equipment just waiting to rape the games market I cant wait >:) downloading games of steam now.... Havent played computer in fucking ages only have a few games for my xbox cod4 which I've beaten six ways from sunday and gow1 + 2 which I have also beaten six ways from sunday haha.

Fuck me if you could see the fucking grin I have on my face now =D

Rather pleased atm although I did get roped into fucking helping with the building grrr, I do get to kick the crap out of our old kitchen so its not all bad ;D

arg I just saw the download rate I'm getting atm..... 5% left and its going at 243 kb/s thats gonna be fucking ages :( oh ya btw did I mention I'm an impatient bastard... I want it NOOOW >.<

=P

Talk to ye all again gluck *waves*

Cian

Grrrrrrr

My new computer is fucked, think I put it together wrong or applied the thermal paste to the back of the processor wrong or something like that, bottom line it keeps shutting down whenever stress is put on the processor and I go >.< every single time. The sodding thing cost 2,000 euro's and well I'm slightly annoyed haha. What even worse te pillocs at the site I orderred it from are about as helpfull as a bag of turnips.... I sent them a webnote and got back a reply to which I went "yes I know that the problem HOW DO I FIX IT" -.- well I didn't send that to them but thats what I was thinking

My house is a fucking building site atm, we're getting an extension and moving or kitchen around and few other things and I cant wait for it to be finished I'l look mint I'd say. But until then we have no central heating and our fridge is out the back garden in my Dads shed haha. Whats worse aswell is the guys that are building it can only come around once or twice every two weeks. My Dad's doing most of the re-wiring, plumbing and all that but he's leaving the actual construction, structural stuff and demolition to a group of fella's he knows.

There a massive trench going through the kitchen atm which is gona be for the new heating pipes and all that but while digging it they found a mouses nest... in the middle of a solid concrete floor O.o how the fuck he got in there I have no idea the mouse was right next to the heating pipes, likes his comforts the little shit hehe.

Anyways thats me done for today my uncle who's an electrical engineer ( you may bow to his title now ) is calling over later to see if he can help me sort out my pc. Whats even better is he works with an IT company so fingers crossed =D

See ye later :)

Cian

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Just read cvn's post

Jesus that news is soo bad, I mean christ like its fucking horrible.

I suppose I should tell ye why that blog hit me like a brick...

My best friend was killed when I was 15, he was run over by a taxi when he was crossing a motorway. His family are still fucked I mean his parents were odd to begin with but they took a massive hit from it, his Dad took early retirement and well his mum's a nervous wreck now. He was only 14 when it happened so that understandable and well I'm not going to lie to ye I was in shock, we had buried another family member the same year and withing 2 months of that my grandad and my gran aunt who I was very close to died aswell... so needless to say that was a complete cunt of a year. The only time I cried was when I saw my oldest brother coming out of my grandads bed room crying his eyes out (he was living at home) after my dad had just told him that he probably wouldnt be around for much longer.

Thats probably one of the worst memories I have from my teens and I wish I could erase it from my mind, but anyway my friend was dead, gone just like that. I was at home when it happened and his brother came over to our house and said
"He's been hit by a car"
fucking bang just like that my heart sank and I sat down on the stairs head in my hands wishing with every single ounce of my being that he would be ok that this was all just a bad dream and wasnt hapening. But it was and I knew what I had to do, some of the girls we knew were having a sleepover in a house a few minutes away from mine, I left my house and ran, ran as fast as my fucking legs could carry me to the house. I had to talk to them, tell them what was going on.

When they saw me banging on the window their faces went gray they knew something bad was after hapening. I told them, I almost felt like throwing up I was in shcok my mind was numb and my heart was feeling the worst pain I have ever known in my life. The girls were just as bad talking in hushed voices tears welling in their eyes it was horrible. I went home and was staning in the hall when I heard the door bell ring, that was his brother coming to tell me that my best friend was ok... I opened the door and he said

"He didnt make it" tears streaming down his face.

I was just standing there eyes and mouth wide open not really sure what to do, my heart was beating so fast I could hear it pounding in my ears, I talked with him for a bit and he left crying and walked back to his house. I went to the girls house and told them, one of the most awfull sounds I have in my head to this day was holding them close to me as they cried... it felt so bad but at least I was there with them and we were all there for each other.

The funeral was horrible I was standing there arm around a friend from our gang who was crying I just hugged him and told him that he could talk to me if there was anything he needed. Inside I was in bits, just an empty shell of who I was the day before I was numb, hadnt eaten in days and wanted to wake up from this what was probably the worst time of my life. But my friends needed me and I was dammed if I wasn't going to offer my shoulder to anyone who needed it.

I still havent cried about that or any of the other deaths to this day, the only time I did the entire time I told ye about earlier, I think there's only so much your heart can take before it tells life to go and get fucked.... didn't even cry while typing but I'm glad that I told ye about this I wanted to for soo long but I didnt want to just post it out of the blue. Hearing about what hapenned I realised I could share a part of my life that I have never talked about with anyone.

RJ I know you cant hear me but you hang in there ok dont give up and never stop fighting for your life. I'm wishing with every ounce of my sould that you will be ok....

I'l check back in a bit to see how he got on

Bye for now

Cian

Monday, June 8, 2009

hello again =P

Sorry I've not posted in a while :\ been a bit down lately, my computers fucked (the new one) had to build it myself well my friend did but there's something wrong with the processor that coupled with the fact that I went into with no sleep made me feel a bit odd yesterday.

I mean really weird I knew something was wrong with me and I felt like I was slipping into one of my dark moods again which can really really fuck me up, but haha all's I needed was a good nights sleep and I feel grand again woooooot =D love being in a normal mood not going mad but ya know just chilled like a can of beer mmmmmmmm. Speaking of beer I'm gonna ring my friends in a min n see if they fancy coming up for a few beers, really bored atm and there's only so much internet tv you can watch before you start to turn into a mad raving loon... not that I would.... no honest :)

As I havent done anything the last few days so I think half my problem is just being plain bored out of my tree :(

and what is AJ up to haha he's made a trillion posts in under 2 days. Havent read em yet but I will soon :)

Oh and my computer is actually working like I can turn it on and it wont explode just I think I did the coolant wrong, so when ever the processor is put under stress it shuts itself down to protect itself. It's ridiculously underpowerred atm 7 of its 8 cores have been shut off and its running at less than half the speed that it should be at. Which when you are mega nerd ie: ME is very very annoying cos I cant use it for the reason I bought the sodding thing, computer games :(

But hey, dont have anything else going wrong with my life atm so I guess I should shut up and get on with it XD

Talk to ye soon

Cian

Friday, June 5, 2009

wooooo wooooo

More followers YAY always nice to know that a few more people are reading the shit that I'm spewing onto the web haha xD

The morning after the night before

Ugh my heads fucked, what a blast last night was though. Got a lift into town from one of the lads dads n we had to walk yes fucking walk through town dressed like complete morons. Passed a large hotel in the city that had a crowd of tourists with camera's aswell hehe, we should have stopped and let them take proper pictures but we didnt :( just wanted to get the fuck out of dodge ya know.

We stopped to talk to someone on the way in aswell one of the lads knew em n while we did the traffic lights on one of the bussiest streets in the city turned red -.- so there were about 60 plus cars full of people busting their arses laughing at us haha. Must have been rather unusual to see that at half 8 in the evening I felt rather stupid for a while standing around but then gradualy got used to looking like a moron hehe.

So anyway we got into the club which was pretty empty at this stage but it was still early and got right down to the important bit... the alcohol =D so anyway the club was great there were some nice outfits there too. I nearly pissed myself when four teletubbies walked in the door and had to and lean on something I was laughing so hard. Had my first yaeger bomb too o.o which is a shot of yaegermeister dropped into a glass of redbull and down the hatch in one, which is dangerous within minutes I was bouncing off the fucking walls. Redbull as I'm sure alot of people know is a ridiculously rich energy drink, in fact its soo bad I think they have to put warnings on the cans as it makes your heart go from 0 to 100 in under a miinute. It even fucked up my sleep last night I couldnt get to bed cos I was like O.O

Anyway danced and talked my hole off till 2 in the morning was hammered by now but I was ok, was drunk but wasnt too drunk ya know. But we had to leave the club anyway so we did about 5 or 6 of us in full get up walked down to one of the major takeaways in the city. We got plenty of attention, most of it pointing and laughing (^^,) didnt care by now though its all part of the fun. Got a big bag of chips anyway n was standning outside talking to a few people we went to school with, was nice to talk to em again. Havent seen some of em in 2 years so we were cathcing up :)
I dont really like standing around outside takeaways though as alot of people are morons and that one tends to be a hotspot for trouble, people brawling on the street and all that isnt really my kind of thing.

So we finished up our chips which took ages as we were talking the whole time and ran into some other people from school n were talking to them aswell, we were still having people walking up going " Love the outfits guys " which was all well and good haha. MUst have heard that about a thousand times. Got into a taxi anyway ya should have seen his face when we got in O.o I just said " fancy dress " n he was like " fair enough " then got dropped off after one of the other lads n walked through my park n got in home and then realised I had left my fucking fags in the taxi.... BOLLOCKS

So had to walk about a mile or so to the nearest 24 hour garage, may not seem like much but try doing that when your making figure of eights and not able to walk straight ;D got there anyway bought em and then went D: FOOOD so got a big mac too ate that they practically threw me out the door after I bought it because they were closing as if they ever close down mac donalds like ( ewww just sneezed all over my arm )and then I had the fun times of walking home.... I was soo tempted to find a nice garden and pan out, I was wrecked after my trip.

Got home and realised I had forgotten my keys -.- as it was now 4 o clock in the morning waking the rental units would have been a bad idea as I would have been hacked apart by an angry mother and beaten to death by my dad who had work in the morning. Had to go and find the spare one we keep which took fucking ages, also the fact that my brain was shutting down didnt help matters at all :\ found it and was like :D upstairs brushed my teeth and collapsed into bed, took a while to fall asleep though :(

Anyways had a great night and to make things even better my computer came yesterday :D although I had fuck all to do with building it my friend did that haha, it was just about one of the most painfull things I have ever had to watch. All the pushing and shoving going " get in there you bastard " *tap tap tap SMACK* made me feel ill. Those components are soo fucking fragile I thought I'd die.

Havent read any blogs yet today still rather hung over :s

Gluck anyway peeps :)

Cian

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

My liver is going to hate me

Im going out to a fancy dress tomorrow, it is going to be epic. I was talked into it by my friends last night. See I'm not that much of a town person I do enjoy it when I'm there but I dont really like it that much, I prefer being in a gaf with friends and a few beers. But anyway afetr alot of convinving I eventually agreed to go, my friends were practically begging me to come. So instead of being a boring bastard I decided I would.

Got my costume and all 50 quid :O it looks pretty funny, I'm going as a medieval knight hehe even have a shitty plastic sword to go with it. I can guarantee somebody there will be a pirate and will need a swift slash or two from my deadly discount weapon =D I'd say it'l be a good laugh and whats more aswell is its a fundraiser for a friend of mine who's going abroad to Africa so not only do we have an axcuse to get drunk now we're doing it to help people which is nice ya know.

There's going to be aload of people there too, your one put it up on bebo and texted wveryone in her phone so the place will be packed. To tell the truth I'm kinda excited, my liver isnt though. It's going to get a sound beating =P

Part from that dont really have much to say except that the weather has been savage lately I think my post giving out about the shitty weather we were getting may have done some good maybe I should do it more often :) this is probably some of the best weather we've had here in eons... Last summer was a pile of ass really, to give an example how bad it was the rivers were higher in the summer than they were in the winter which is :o an EPIC fail of a summer (^^,)

Anyways I'l make a post tomorrow if I'm alive and tell ye all about my night :)

talk to ye soon

Cian

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

After the tins

K all of lads are gone. Bit mouldy now so bear with me...

We had a mega chat. I fucking love those, as I said to my friend " I hope I'm not boring you, ya know the lack of people drinking? " he replied " I'm drinking with my friends what more could I ask for " I went " awwwwww " in my head haha.

All of that to the side I came to the point where I was thinking about telling them that I like guys too as they were talking about guys being bi... and didnt really seem to care. I guess what I worried about was the initial " OH " that most people get.

I'm positive that my friends would accept me for who I am and wouldnt give a shit, but there's always the chance that makes me go :\ I would love to tell them, I really would, but being a complete and utter bitch I cant cant make myself say it no matter how hard I try.

Anyways that took a massive amount of my limited brain power ( drained by alcohol )
but I'l be back tomorrow dont worry.... I'm fucking starving atm and going to go and rape something in the fridge >:)

btw that took fookin ages to write so ya better fookin enjoy it....

Cian

Tinnies and thoughts

Going for cans later with a few of my mates in my house... A couple of em are being a right bunch gaylords and saying things like " I'm tired " now that really is no excuse just say your a lazy bastard and dont want to come out that would do fine.

Soooooo anyways email rocks btw I can track my order using it hehe, ya know smooth out my nerves. A buddy of mine got something in the post recently that arrived in several hundred pieces. The postman probably knew aswell made him sign the thing and legged it before he could open it to find out that what he had bought was now in half a million pieces inside the packaging. If that was me I would have had a shit attack, my friend was just like meh. I tried to convince him to write a 'nasty' email but he didnt want to. Because like a tool he had signed the thingy before he checked it... pilloc

Went into the bank today n when the bank teller was writing up the funds transfer document I was like D: *cringe* as I realised that was a fuckload of my money just leaving my account. And I still have fuck all to show for it haha. But it will be here soon and I cant wait :>

Ya know I'm still being mega silent about whats going on in my life atm with my friends, nobody even know's I have this and I'm covvering my tracks to the extent that I'm obliterating my internet history every time I sign off... man I feel like Jason Bourne doing shit like this, its kinda annoying ya know :( but at least I have people reading anyway so I guess thats a plus.

Thanks to everyone who's reading this and people who are following my silly little ramblings. I like blogging so much that I go "hmm that would make a nice blog now" =D
but eh short of going into personal details which I'm rather reluctant to release or some really really sad ones ( which people dont really need atm, some of ye are unhappy enough right now and need cheering up so I'l leave them out for now ) ya know about coping with family shit and all that. I'm not really sure what I can write... Dont worry I finished the leaving cert so I should be able to make a fucking cupcake sound awesome (^^,)

I'l think of some stuff to include that ye might find interesting or funny.

Anyways thats me done for now

gluck peeps :)

Cian

Monday, June 1, 2009

me = moron

haha ya I thought it was the matt that I knew who was leaving ROFL.... anyways bye to the other matt even if I dont know him :(

Orderred my computer, but I'm sure I got shafted the dirty bastards. Today as in 7 o clock(ish) the price was coming to about 1540 strling and when I went to order it was 1660 O.O I mean fuck off like, thats fucking madness. That meant that a system that should have cost 1800 has now gone to about 1950 in the space of a few minutes dirty bastards.

They are going to get an email with me going *bitch moan bitch moan* tomorrow. But mainly I just want to know how the fuck they can justify that. I think I know what it might be tho, I was using some offers that brought down the prices of a few items I was buying and maybe because I orderred it late on Monday the offers are no longer valid... SHIT >.<

But meh I suppose I could be sent much worse problems than that so *slap* shut up and get on with it haha. It should be arriving before the weekend which means I'l be up and running by saturday =D

bye matt

Um I'm still a bit puzzled. Read Cvn's blog if your wondering what I'm on about. Matt's gonna leave blogger :(

I barely even know you but you were the first person to comment me :) for whats its worth Matt look after yourself.

I might make another post later, still a bit confused atm lol.

Oh and jeremy, I was talking to Bob when I joined for a bit via email. He told me to get on msn aswell. But I've opted not to, for the time being anyway, I just dont feel up to it. Hope you can understand and even if you dont I hope you can be patient at least. I cant really explain it but there's something in my mind just telling me not to ( I know this may sound a bit odd haha ) and until it stops I probably wont go onto msn. In fact being perfectly honest I dont even know if I ever will go onto msn, but I might ya never know. Sure I did do well in maths when I was leaving school and that was just short of a miracle O.O

I'l more than likely be oredering my computer today. Provided I can talk my dad into handing over his credit card and letting me charge 1.5 K sterling to it ( should be a piece of piss ) except for one thing. He has a massive fear of the internet and anything computer related... its kinda funny really but he frankly doesnt have a clue whats going on when he sits down in front of a computer let alone when I'm putting a huge fuck off charge to his account. As most of ye know Ireland was a bit 1800's when he was growing up. I reckon I'l be able to talk him into it. Ye'l probably find out in the next hour if I did, as I'm either gonna post a big YEEEEESSS or a big NOOOOOOOOOOO (^^,)

talk to ye in a bit

Cian